... little kisses that can't be helped or kept in ... a needful nuzzling ... the determination to be free and clear of muck ... honesty ... the easy exchange of thoughts, opinions, views, learnings, insights ... when the undeniable instinct and need is to be close ... a good hearty meal ... new friendships with really amazing women ...

... being irresistible ... nursing the sick back to health ... nuzzling ... regression with my brother ... a peaceful meal ... efficiency ... growing up and becoming friends with my parents ... when staying together is more valuable, warmer, more loving, more stable, more cozy, funnier, more passionate, truer than being separated ...

... warm breath on bare skin ... the instinctual "don't leave me" clutch ... watching him play ... the promise of next week ...

... reconciliation ... when he remembers ... soy chai lattes from Starbucks ...

... rest and feeling at home ...

... resting in his arms ... receiving ... letting the hours while away whilst we nap, talk, hug, laugh ... recurring jokes ... anticipation of later ... that particular look of commiseration, remembrance, the twinkle in the eye ... feeling at home ... massages ...

... redemption ... fearless honesty, finally ... breaking through deception and misunderstanding and confusion ... a quiet kiss, a tight embrace, a reaching hand that says it all ... truths exchanged between eyes that cut through the dark mistiness ... tickle wars ... making plans ... knowing I am cared for in the most fervent of prayers ... knowing I am thought of all the time ...